8.24.2015

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Right off the bat in June I turned 33. 

I really adore this age. I feel settled and calm. 33 is good. 

I love nothing more than being with my husband and children with an occasional break with friends. I love laughing and playing with my kids. I love seeing them learn new things, enjoy books, reach goals, and carry on with confidence. 

My age is starting to show a little with sun spots and wrinkles, my skin isn't as plump and hydrated, I have found just a couple grey hairs, and unless I'm eating right and working out I often feel fatigued and grumpy. I'm okay with all of this. 

I have struggled with my testimony more this year than ever. I have been striving to hold onto the basics and personal witnesses I have received of the truthfulness of the gospel to stay committed to it. It is hard though. I often feel torn, and guilty, and tired. Through this struggle I have learned that it's okay to have questions and doubts. It's okay to not have perfect faith. I know God loves me. I know he wants my success. I have decided that ultimately I want my kids to grow up in a Christ centered home, I feel balanced and happy when following the teachings of the scriptures, and I just need to not be so hard on myself. As I continue to grow I hope to increase in faith and feel closer to the spirit, I hope to be kinder to myself and others - growing up is hard stuff. 

I love yoga at 33. It's my exercise of choice. It's sweaty, stretchy, strengthening, and centering. I have a great studio I've been going to in town that I absolutely love - it's hard to find that. 

I'm watching Parenthood, Grey's Anatomy, and Wayward Pines (with E).

Most used apps on my phone are Instagram, Clash of Clans, Weatherbug, Walmart Savings Catcher, Feedly, LDS Library, and Yelp. 

I continue to take piano lessons. 

I serve in the Relief Society as First Counselor. 

I love listening to SOHN, Little Dragon, Santigold, Mt Eden, Lorde, Alt-J, and Sylvan Esso with an occasional T-Swift. When I'm alone in the car I listen to Rihanna "Bitch Better have My Money" really loud. 

I am working nights on a joint replacement and spinal surgery unit at a local hospital. I often float to the med/surg floor to help with staffing needs. I love working - but it drains me creatively. I want to get my ACLS certification and move to a job where I'd be in the ER - once all my kiddos are in school. I love working once or twice a week. It's perfect right now. 

In the mornings my favorite thing is going out to inspect my garden. The bees are usually at work pollinating things, the tomatoes are turning, the grass is wet and everything is calm. 






1 comment:

Jord said...

I love this so much. I love you and your honest, loving, open nature. I appreciate you sharing your doubts and struggles and where you go for help. You are such a blessing to me and although I'm a terrible commenter I'm following your dirt faithfully. XOXO

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