3.31.2009

Looking Up

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maemae: 36 weeks, blondie: 19 months

I have always wanted my children close. I want to be a young mother and I want to be done by the time I'm 30. This has always been my plan.

When I was accepted to nursing school in November we wondered if we should put off having our kids for the time-being. I thought about it. We prayed about it....For months.

And then, we happened to drink out of the same glass of water.

Am I scared? Can we juggle it all? Three babies, nursing school, work, time together?

Oh, and I'm sure it will be tough. I'm heartbroken over leaving my precious newborn baby to go to school. I hate the idea of pumping, storing, and thawing my milk. HATE it. Nothing is better for a sweet baby than the liquid gold straight from the source.

But it's like anything, if taken one day at a time with extra love and understanding all will work out. Right? Finger's crossed? Please tell me it will work out!!!!

These hormones are killing me. At least I got the bathrooms cleaned today - and haven't thrown up for 3 days. So yeah, I guess things are looking up.

19 comments:

Candy said...

Oh you poor thing...of course it will work out! The Lord is watching you and is aware of you. You are amazing and you will juggle it with ease. Sure there will be times when you want to rip your hair out, and scream, and cry, all at the same time. But this too shall pass.
Day at a time like you said...heck, hour at a time if you have to.
And are you kidding me? 36 weeks along? dude, I look like I'm 36 weeks along right now. You are so tiny!

Rasmussen boys and 1 girl! said...

I agree with candy, it WILL be fine. It will be hard to leave the new baby for school, but it will be so worth it in the end. The pumping thing isn't so bad. Your body will ajust to your scheudle. You might not even have to do it. Don't be scared, your a great mom.

Jason and Tiffany said...

Hays- everything will be just fine!! I wanted my kids close too (which is why I am where I am) and I feel the same way and I dont have nearly the cool stuff you are doing!! If you can build a chicken coupe while you are sick and probably throwing up, you can do anything. I look up to you :) T

{sorry, I had to copy/paste-- I commented in the last one :( }

Kassi said...

When we're doing what we're supposed to, everything just seems to fall into place! I'm sure things will be fine, and I'm sure you'll be able to think that way too once you aren't sick anymore, or at least that's how it was for me! Yea on not throwing up for 3 days!!!

The Crew said...

Hey, I keep asking the same thing! And again and again I get the same confirmation that yes, it will work out. We may not have everything together all the time, but as you said it, lots of love, patience and understanding with each other- it works out.

Right now I am thinking of all the terrible scenarios we might face, selling our house, moving, having a baby- it will probably all happen on the same day, but think of the great memories we will have to look back on in the future!

You are amazing, you and E have a great partnership, you'll work it out together!

The Brown Family said...

you're such a good mom and a good person. Someday you'll look back and it will feel like a distant memory....but you'll love every part of the memory. You'll get through it!!

April said...

If anyone can do this, it's YOU! You have got to be one of the most capable people I know.
Now I'm sure you guys are REALLY glad you moved closer! Although we miss you over here.
FYI. If you are dying to see me in the next few weeks, you'll have to come over to my house cause I just got put on bedrest! Yipee! :)

banananutmeg said...

three days. that's a good run. Pretty soon, you'll have your energy back and feel like you can take on the world for a few months.
At this point, it is silly to even doubt. You KNOW things will be crazy. But you also KNOW you'll be blessed for doing what's right. You'll be fine. Great. Even if you have messy bathrooms once in awhile.

hays said...

thanks for all the positive vibes. love that i have such awesome friends.

The Wifey said...

I was going to say what Jason and Tiffany said, dude if you can build a freakin chicken coupe while being sick and going to school then you can do anything. I want to be you when I grow up!

Obviously this baby was meant to come and the Lord will guide you if you have faith in Him. And I'm pretty sure you do. I got preggo with Lil' Sis at the worst possible time-no job, no insurance but I knew it was time and guess what? Before she was born Hubby got a job and great insurance. It was amazing.

He will never leave you on your own!

Lindy Lewis said...

There is NOTHING you can't do!
I really look up to you....
Probably one of the strongest people I know! (not physically, silly)

hays said...

whatever! i'm totally ripped, lin!

nicwoo said...

:) You'll be able to love how every part of your life will progress. (I understand; seems all we can fit on our plate, and it usually effects our family first-)it is the felt downside to being in our prime!!
I JUST skimmed N.E. about a young person doing the math regarding going on a mish, med school, internship, residency, etc.etc. And worried what he can eliminate because he'd be going until he was 33 at 'a late start at normal living' Marion D. Hanks: "When you are 33, what would you rather have done? None of those things, half of those things, or all of those things?"
Yep. You've made good decisions and WILL continue upward. ex: You've made time to love and blog and be great at it- now you've got a fanbase rooting for you!! :)
Keep praying, good woman.

Aubrey said...

I'm living proof that it's possible. Difficult, yes. But possible. Congrats on the new baby and don't stress. It'll just give you heartburn ;)

sheena said...

you are such a good mom. I am so excited for you...lucky little fetus.

Kroegers Calling said...

I finished my degree pregnant with Caitlyn and Logan was little. You can do it. It's tough and tiring, but you can do it. If you can move, surivive a flood, build a fence, a chicken coop, and take care of 5 chickens and 2 kids, you can do it!

Garrison Propaganda said...

this is why i swore you wouldnt have a baby for a couple of years--and why i was so shocked to hear baby #3 was already in the works. nursing school and pregnancy with two little ones already--surely its suicide for any young mom! but not you. its all about balance. youre awesome at multi-tasking. youre smart, a great mom, a good wife, and know what the lord wants from you. im sure it will be very difficult at times, but keeping the lord in the equation youll always know what to do. i admire all you juggle! i sure as heck could never do it.

mrs.kristin said...

I love that picture! You were such a tiny pregnant lady!!! I always thought I'd have my first baby in June, so I wouldn't have to take any time off from work. Well, that plan never happened, and I wouldn't have had it any other way! Just think of it as multi-tasking...school and baby! You've had two, so your a pro, right!?! hehe!!:)

Ashley K. said...

CONGRATS!!! You amaze me...

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